#0057
The things I'll never say.
1. I'm sorry that you're stuck there. You of all people do not deserve that, not even close.
2. I miss you so much more than I ever thought I would. I can't stop thinking about that text I got from you, on that one awful night. I'll never forgive myself for asking if you were kidding.
3. When that happened to you, I went through so much horrible shit because of it. You can't ever find out, because what you went through was so much worse.
4. You don't get it. No one gets it. And you know what? I never expected anything different.
5. Thank you, for giving me that peace of mind. There's something about you that no one else has, and that is why you're so special to me.
6. Things change, people change. The person I've become can't fucking stand the person you've become.
7. Out of the five other people in that picture (that a short while ago, I would have called my best friends), you are the only one I still speak to, and I'm so scared that I'll lose you too.
8. You're my comic relief, and I don't know what I'd do without you.
9. I neglect you. I always have. We all do it, and you've always treated me like the best thing in your world.