#0061
My twin sister has cancer. Breast cancer...the most aggresive variety. If it were five years ago, the prognosis would be mortal. Herceptin puts a whole new view on it. Her chances of living have gone from 15% to 75...... it's not enough. What am i to do now.....? I know what to do - I have taken compassionate leave to care for her and i will go and care for her And yet,...and yet...I am grieving the loss of my life - the life I lead every day.... where I live, who I live with, my dog, my friends, my job, my house.... I have to leave them all. She lives in another country you see.... and I don;t regret a thing.... I am going to miss it here thats all... it;s so beautiful here now - England is more beautifull in May than anywhere else could be.... I don't want to go - I don;t want to face what I must face...and yet what i must face is nothing compared to her - I don't want to watch her lose her breast, lose her hair, , 7 months of chemo therapy and 3 more months of radiotherapy. Its not about me.. but I don;t want to watch. I shall though.. I shall love and care for her as much as i can....I just don;t want to have to do this.